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Guilty pleasure: Jesse McCartney - How Do You Sleep

I could listen to this song all day every day and probably not get sick of it. Gross.

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It's pouring down rain outside and I couldn't be more excited. This is going to be a lazy fucking day, I can tell already.

I can't tell if I am excited for classes to start on Monday. I'm not excited for people (students) to come back and become a burden. I loved having this town to myself. I loved parking wherever I wanted, driving across town in less than 20 minutes, and not having to wait an excessively long time at any given restaurant. I also liked falling asleep on any given day without having to block out the screaming and puking outside my window. I am excited to see my friends. I want Ellen to move in to my apartment. I actually like going to classes and I want the dance year to start. It's also senior year though and I feel fucking old.

I went to Kings Dominion yesterday with my lil' bro with BBBS. It was great. Exhausting but worth it. I love theme parks and everything about them, even the overpriced food. I kept having flashbacks of my childhood and how awesome my mom was for both dealing with me in a theme park and taking me there so many times.

I also went home this past weekend for an eye doc's appt. but I really wanted to stay longer. It was just a tease to see my parents and my friends but really not be able to spend a lot time with them. The more and more I think about it the more and more I miss the summer after junior year in high school. Those were very easily the happiest days of my life. I know I say that a lot but I really, really mean it. It's depressing to think things may never be that perfect again but it's so worth it to know I have those memories in the first place. Prom, homecomings, and slumber parties in my life have been perfect because of the people I was with. I can't understand why and how we got along so well but seriously, you all made the biggest impact on my life. You guys set the standard for everything that has followed.

king of all wild things

some things

I've been sitting at home alone all day. I got up at 2:30 after trying to wake up at 10:30 and being so hungover that I failed miserably. Hibernated until I got a random phone call. I hate waking up to phone calls, I think it is one of the most embarassing things ever. I am never coherent enough to talk sense and I am well aware that whoever is doing the calling is judging me for my ineptitude. Half of the time I give false responses, then never remember the conversation anyway. This is usually the case with my mother and so then I feel bad. It used to be the case with my employer but I no longer have to worry about that. Similarly yet unfortunately, I no longer get free cases of beer. Paying for drinking is not something I am used to and it pisses me off. It is actually the only thing that I regret about leaving Food Lion. I am excited to take the semester off of working but not excited to be broke.

Movies I watched today:
1. Bring it On
2. Max Keeble's Big Move
3. Back to the Future
4. The Princess Bride

I watched these all in a row today from my bed. Today was necessary but made me feel a little worthless.

"May the days be aimless. Let the seasons drift. Do not advance the action according to a plan." - White Noise, Don DeLillo

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