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It's pouring down rain outside and I couldn't be more excited. This is going to be a lazy fucking day, I can tell already.

I can't tell if I am excited for classes to start on Monday. I'm not excited for people (students) to come back and become a burden. I loved having this town to myself. I loved parking wherever I wanted, driving across town in less than 20 minutes, and not having to wait an excessively long time at any given restaurant. I also liked falling asleep on any given day without having to block out the screaming and puking outside my window. I am excited to see my friends. I want Ellen to move in to my apartment. I actually like going to classes and I want the dance year to start. It's also senior year though and I feel fucking old.

I went to Kings Dominion yesterday with my lil' bro with BBBS. It was great. Exhausting but worth it. I love theme parks and everything about them, even the overpriced food. I kept having flashbacks of my childhood and how awesome my mom was for both dealing with me in a theme park and taking me there so many times.

I also went home this past weekend for an eye doc's appt. but I really wanted to stay longer. It was just a tease to see my parents and my friends but really not be able to spend a lot time with them. The more and more I think about it the more and more I miss the summer after junior year in high school. Those were very easily the happiest days of my life. I know I say that a lot but I really, really mean it. It's depressing to think things may never be that perfect again but it's so worth it to know I have those memories in the first place. Prom, homecomings, and slumber parties in my life have been perfect because of the people I was with. I can't understand why and how we got along so well but seriously, you all made the biggest impact on my life. You guys set the standard for everything that has followed.